Hello dear @Basildarat,
By reading about your problem I get a feeling of great compassion to you.
My beloved woman is manic depressiv and we went through several deep valleys.
So I think I can imagine what you're going through.
The courage to come out here honers you and I think this is a good place to get help.
I sent you a rainbow to say you're not alone and believe me , the rainbow will be there for you whenever you need.
And also I think our healer Ottschke can do much more for you.
Get well soon
dont mention the war .i mentioned it once but think i got away with it !!